So Happier Than God by Neale Donald Walsch was a great read. The greatest lesson I got from it was from chapter 11, I thought it was so great that I wrote down the whole chapter on my site, you can read it here. http://www.claimingpower.com/Flow.html
The way to move out of judgment is to move into gratitude.
This has been shifting my mindset in incredible ways…
Understanding that Happiness is about attitude; your circumstances aren’t really responsible for Happiness. SPG said it in this way, “it’s about becoming a yes to life.” A quote from the book, “Happiness is not getting what you want, it is wanting what you get.” It’s an attitude of moving away from judging certain circumstances as bad or wrong, and seeing that all circumstances are good even the ones that appear bad, it’s about holding the faith that the “bad” hold incredible gifts and lessons. Realizing that the universe only provides gifts and it is always conspiring and working for and towards your favor.
And the bonus of being happy? The universe responds to your vibration and brings more reason to be happy about, Neale Donald Walsch posted on his facebook status couple weeks ago, “Here is a great secret: Happiness is not created as a result of certain conditions. Certain conditions are created as a result of happiness.” I feel that developing this attitude is one of THE GREAT SECRETS, a life changing miracle.
I am grateful! I am in the flow! WOHHOOO so What happens now?!! LOL Ok so I have this meeting with my probation officer once a month that I go to, to turn in my PBT (Public Breathalyzer Test) sheet for the month, which proves I haven’t been consuming any alcohol even though I am already 21, I got this charge two months before I turned 21, yeah its a mother fucker! …Well I have been consuming alcohol!!! So I had to forge 7 cop signatures on my sheet and proceeded to turn it in to my PO (probation officer) she takes one look and realizes that there’s two SAME dates on my other sheet that I turned in a month ago, somehow I didn’t delete the two dates I already forged from my phone so I had two duplicate dates, long story short, I got 30 days daily PBTs and have to appear to court in a month. My heart started beating fast and I knew I was in some real BIG SHIT. Despite my body reacting and panicking, I was thinking about the gratitude lesson in my head…
Even though I felt pissed and all sorts of emotions including anxiety, and worry about the future, I chose to accept what had just happened and allowed myself to say “Thank You God”, I just started thinking you know what I can’t reverse the past so I’m just gonna choose to remain grateful for what had happened, and put my faith on the universe that there is a gift unfolding for me, and I shall emerge out of this mess a better man.
Maybe the universe was testing me…testing my new found gratitude mindset, saying “have you really changed?”(Bashar speaks on this phenomenon, the universe will reflect back an old reality to give the individual a chance to really decide if they want the change or not, if they really prefer the old or the new reality)
Few days later my neighbors threw a huge party and I decided to drink some beers, I stopped by 1:30 am but it was too late, I failed the breathalyzer test next morning, but luck would have it, it was a lady cop and she somehow let me go. Unbelievable! I was thinking “Ok I’m going to fucking jail, it’s game over.” She actually was really nice to me, smiled and shit as I thanked her from the bottom of my heart and shook her hand. Next morning she was there again, and she greeted me with a smile and a nice “Hi.” and after the test I said, “Have a really nice day.” and she smiles again. Maybe she likes me :).
On another note, I’ve been practicing Resonance, which you can read about here. http://thespgdiaries.blogspot.com/2010/06/beach-musings-reaching-vs-resonance.html
It’s been pretty fucking incredible, whenever I’m in resonance I’m magnetic, I seem to draw women to me. Went to an event where my friend(www.joehertler.com) was playing a set, I was just chilling on one of the tables and a hot intern that was working at the event came and stood right next to me, and instead of worrying about what to say to her, I just stood there and continued watching my friend play on stage. I was consciously choosing to stay grounded, feeling my core, feeling my tailbone, feeling my penis and the energy that was arising there but that’s it, just feeling comfortable in my skin and not doing anything special or unnatural. I completely ignored her and After a while, the girl leaves and I’m like whatever, but she comes back after a few minutes and again stands next to me, this time after a bit struck a conversation with me, and we had a nice talk, I could tell she was into me. And one of the musician’s girl friend (Not my friend Joe’s) I noticed was all friendly and smiley around me all day too, she also struck up a conversation with me, asking me about school and shit. She kept on looking over when I was talking to that hot intern lol.
Later that night, Me and my musical buddy Joe went to a party, this time I refused any alcohol, and was sober the whole night while everybody around me are pulling shots out of fifth bottles, getting wasted. Again I’m just being myself, not worrying about trying to “game” any girls, and somehow girls just seem to find me and strike up conversations with me. Interesting, I’m learning that when I’m trying to do seduction to get the girl, it really does feel unnatural but when I’m just enjoying myself and feeling my core and loving what is there and not doing anything special just because there are girls around, even to the point where I’m not even trying to talk to them, girls are interested, I’m in resonance, I’m attractive…I will have to explore this further.
SO This daily PBT is forcing me to not drink, so I want take this opportunity to practice being able to socialize with people in a party atmosphere without needing to have alcohol in my system. So many times, I’ve relied on alcohol to help me feel comfortable in my body and be more out going and social, but I know I shouldn’t even need that. This is going to turn out to be yet another lesson for me.
And this PBT is forcing me to wake up early in the morning which is kinda nice because now I get to do a lot of work early in the morning, and it’s keeping me away from the bars, and the heavy drinking party scenes for a bit. I get to focus more energy and time on my coaching work with SPG and my Orgasmic Mastery work with Destin Gerek. I’ve been doing some real cool exercises that’s opening me up to more and more profound shifts and transformations towards becoming my evolved, erotic self. Like for example today, I woke up early, went to blow, came back and did a meditation exercise that I got from SPG, experienced some pretty intense emotions, and I felt the heavy emotion lift and dissipate, a pretty incredible shift, but it was draining, It knocked me out for couple hours…woke up later feeling calm, and extra sexy, feeling very good in my chest area…Cool. More to report soon.
And my financial situation is gonna pick up now big time, I finally got my medical marijuana card(very recently the law passed in Michigan) which is awesome because I can now join my roommate who is starting his business of selling MJ to the dispensaries which is all legal BTW. He has already invested several grand into his growing facility, he just tells me he wants me to join him and start making some real money. (Note: I hardly ever smoke weed anymore, I hardly ever enjoy being high now, I’m doing this purely for the money) So this is very very good news for me, this financial opportunity just landed on my lap. The Money literally found me. I believe this is the result of me awakening recently, thinking big, believing in myself, and believing that I am worthy of success on all levels. Gratitude mindset may have just been the final push to open the floodgates right open for things to start moving. Right now I can’t help but feel grateful!!! Another proof that the Universe PROVIDES. All of this is falling into place now, I’m loving it.