Some Updates, Some Changes

so its my birthday today so I thought I’d share some progress I’ve been noticing since commencing on my Presence Process Journey, I’m nearing the end of week 6.

It’s a process which is training me to more and more just “be” with my uncomfortable feelings, and emotions.  Without trying to control it, and without reacting to it.  Now second part has been pretty enormously empowering for me… I’ve been more and more successful at just containing my emotions, meaning I’m not going into the mind, concocting all these different stories, and I’m not losing my composure, acting inauthentic (which is trying to put on that mask to hide what you’re really feeling) when these emotions arise.  Instead I contain, I stay centered, and allow those emotions to be, comfort myself and allow myself to be just as I am, and know that whatever I’m feeling in that moment is Valid. This has been making me a more grounded, cool, manly, sexy in a whole new way.  Hey Destin in his group coaching was talking about doing this to women is one of the biggest attractive things, keeping your cool and staying centered while a women is coming at you with all of her furry. Allana Pratt calls it “Being the bank of the river”.

Well I’m growing this quality by doing it to myself. and it’s working cause as I put myself in situations where I’m alone and I’m consciously working with/being with these uncomfortable felt signatures, I’m less and less reacting to them when they arise in front of other people.  I’m realizing at the root of my drama to react or  go into dis empowering patterns of thought or behavior there is this underlying felt signature component to it, which Michael Brown is teaching me through the Presence Process is the causal point…

and as I impact this causal point by “shining the radiance of being” upon it, some of these patterns have been effortlessly falling away, and this is another major progress I’ve been making.

Also I’m shifting towards more and more towards this multi/group idea of Me.  realizing I’m not just one singular person, there’s different personality/aspects of me. The inner child, the inner nurture, inner guidance, inner warrior, etc. And one of the ways I’m growing this quality is that I refer to myself in front of the mirror in that way, “I got us”, “We’re doing good” this kinda sounds ridiculous but it’s happening naturally as I’m reaching towards more and more comfort with just being alone with myself. and I am more and more able to just be with myself, comforting the nagging pangs of my own inner child that seeks to get love from outside, and this is probably the most transformative thing (even though it’s hard to see the effects(consequences) of it yet), I can feel that it’s creating some deep healings within me, and creating irreversible shifts within.  I’m finding myself with new creativity when I’m with other people, and increased sense of confidence.

But perhaps the most perceivable difference has been really strengthening the witness consciousness, or just another way of saying more presence. This big breakthrough began weeks ago during Destin’s group coaching experience, week5 power of presence, I meant to write about it before but didn’t because I didn’t know it’s been a real change yet, but this shift has continued and since then cultivated even more of this detached point of view. It’s best to explain it as a place where I feel further from the chattering monkey, instead of being absorbed and lost in it, I’m able to watch it from some distance, I’m becoming more and more present… is I guess what’s happening. I have more awareness of what’s going on inside my body and how that’s driving unnecessary mental drama. and I’m just not buying into it. I’m able to just witness and let it go. Michael calls this shift “Landing out of the Mental Plane“.

well this is what I have for now, more insight and realization will probably follow, so keep checking back on this blog if your curious. Thanks everyone.