Why I ran away from Robert Smith 2 years ago

As I’m watching these videos of Robert doing the healings with Faster EFT, I remembered what I was feeling years ago when I tried to do Faster EFT, then gave up and moved on to something else.

I was really afraid to feel the strong negative emotions attached to the things I believed about myself unconsciously.  I didn’t want to look at it.  I didn’t want to admit it.  I didn’t want to deal with it.  And I remembered as I tried to do this exercise of loving your body 2 years ago, I was afraid that feeling the negative emotions while stating things I hated about myself, would actually affirm it.

So there’s all these emotions that came up: fear, hatred, shame, guilt, powerlessness, hopelessness, sadness, rejection…  And I was overwhelmed.

I was feeling like this process was actually making me worse off.  So I tried it couple times and just really gave it up…a lesson learned from that mistake is that…

IF you can FEEL it, then it’s in YOU.  Meaning it’s alive in your unconscious mind.  You can do your best to focus on the good, using affirmations and such by directing your conscious thoughts but if these “inner demons” are alive in your unconscious, your going to lose the battle.

Pushing it off to the side will not release it, Going inside and actually FEELING IT is the key that helps to release it. And it does seem like you’re getting worse off in the beginning, that’s because you have all this programming inside you that’s getting uncovered and made aware of.  Stick with it.  Remember what you don’t like you keep, what you keep you attract.

“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” -Carl Jung (Shadow Work)

It’s this process of facing and owning up to what’s inside you and changing them is what makes the big difference.  Tapping is simply a tool, what makes the shift is this attitude to change what you hold within.

This means you are going to have to face some tough emotions, the pains, the hurts, the fears, the rejections, etc.

But I promise you it’s well worth the effort because if you put it off now, the problem will only get bigger, the shadow will only grow till it consumes your whole life.

If you can FEEL it, then it’s alive inside you.

So the goal is to get to the point where you can say the negative statements, “I’m ugly.” and not feel any emotions around it.  You almost laugh about it because you know it’s not true AT ALL.

And I’m accomplishing these shifts day by day, and my steps get lighter each time 🙂

-CP