I wanted to report on some of the shifts that’s been taking place for me…oh..the last 2 weeks or so. It began on week 4 of Destin Gerek’s group coaching which was the Power of Presence…and then miraculous The Presence Process landed into my hands…
The Presence Process is a 11 week journey that facilitates increasing present moment awareness (presence) and deep emotional cleansing. A gently guided procedural Shadow Work, which I am familiar with but never seen quite this much quality information and depth about this work.
anyway the shift has been that I’m becoming more present to life than ever before.
A new dominating intent…which is to feel everything. to get better at feeling all range of emotions and accept them as valid and required in whatever moment they arise. So I have become increasingly more embodied and a lot less mind chatter.
What this means is that, instead of unconsciously going up into the head to create all sort of stories and justifications that go around and around in circles in an attempt to avoid Feeling.
I’m beginning to sit with what is. Increasingly more accepting of the present moment.
I don’t know why but it feels awesome to just accept life as it is. It’s as if when I start becoming a yes to what is. (even uncomfortable moments) In that instant I just embody so much more power because no energy is wasted trying to escape from the moment, by going into the past or projecting a future reality.
Just deciding that I will sit with whatever emotions instead of reacting to them, is making me a much more calm and centered. and in that instant when I tell my self I will be with me without condition, I just feel so much more love for myself. Michael said is best when he said, “I’m going to be with myself just because I’m here….” If I’m feeling fear, great. I’ll still be with the fear and sit with it, like a gentle parent and I’ll just…embrace it. It’s all good.
And I’ve been doing this, different places, around different social settings, just feeling uncomfortable feelings like anxiety without judging the feelings, just being with what was there in the moment. I was still able to be ME just fine. and the feeling was not that bad, I’m realizing it’s actually me running away from these feelings that’s been causing me so much drama and hell in my inner world….damnnn. I’m discovering a lot of new things right now.
The Presence Process is to emotionally grow up and it’s not easy work I am told.
I feel this is going to be the start of one hell of a journey. Death of living in time is near. As I use intention to access Presence more and more…I had a realization, like woah I don’t need the mind to live.
-CP
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