Facing Big Resistance through Roommates

Meet my college roommates that I’ve been living with for the last year and a half, my source of challenge, resistance, inspiration, fun, laughter.

Meet Jack:

Meet Andrew:

Meet Matt:

Ever since I’ve taken on the responsibility of “what I do to me inside me”, or self inquiry about my own issues or programming.  I’m starting to realize my roommates are truly gifts for me to heal.  They are powerful spiritual teachers for my own evolution.

It’s  interesting that we (me and the roommates) are all Aries.  Jack’s birthday is March 21, Mines March 22nd, and Andrew’s is March 24th.  Matt’s April 15th.  I sometimes would (jokingly) think that our fate of coming together and living in one household was some kinda crazy cosmic, karmic event/play.

Because we all come from such different backgrounds.

I mean Jack is from a farm town, very successful father that owns his own kitchen distribution company, grew up riding dirt bikes and four wheelers, partied hard in highschool, made money by himself from an early age, super confident, always women in his life.  What I do notice about Jack is he always tells Good stories about himself to other people, almost to the point where he may come off “self-absorbed” or “cocky/arrogant” to some people, he seem to see himself in the best possible light all the time…But I really do admire that aspect of him.  That’s something Robert Smith talked about, telling yourself a good story.  And I would say Jack has a pretty damn solid mindset when it comes to how he presents himself to the world.  And it’s clear that his outer world reflects that which he chooses to be.

Andrew also comes from a family of very successful business owners, they own a big apple orchard business and he’s very “well taken care of” by his parents…at least when it comes to money.  His parents are by far the wealthiest amongst us.  He’s from a farm but it’s more of a business than a farm, I see him more of a “city kid”.  Always buying new clothes, into yoga, sort of into spirituality, LOA. For as rich as he is (his parents) he is pretty down to earth and I admire that about him.

Matt comes from engineer father, like my dad, nothing crazy like Andrew’s or Jack’s dad but me and matt both live pretty comfortably up here.  Big thanks to bridge cards.  Matt’s the roudy one, I’ve drunk wrestled with him bunch of times lol.  Pretty carefree and chill dude.

So we are pretty unique and different in a lot of ways, but it somehow works, we all make each other laugh with our own unique sense of humor.

Living with them I see and understand that the outer world success is not the source of what’s inside… the confidence, happiness, love.  It’s what’s inside that counts, that creates / attracts.  The outer world success is merely the byproduct, “the extension of the being.”

Applying the lessons of Surrogate Tapping. by Robert Smith, has been opening a whole new way of self inquiry and release.  Just being aware of when my roommates trigger me, something they say that would make me feel uncomfortable is a time to ask questions like “why am I being triggered here?”  “What is making me upset?”  and it usually comes down to the fact that I’m denying myself of certain qualities, that I see in others but not in me.  In the past, I’m realizing now, how much I have unconsciously affirmed negatively about myself by comparing me to them, and who they were, or what they were doing.  and using my imaginations to create much un-useful suffering, feelings of lack, unworthiness, etc.

Also noticing when I’m harboring some anger towards them, and digging deep to find out what’s the source of this anger.  It’s always all about me.  Not them.

Once I started getting this, I realize they are providing me with many opportunities to heal ALL DAY LONG, many things to work with.  It feels pretty overwhelming at the moment.  But I am committed to making the changes.

-CP